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Faye_Kane_girl_brain
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Ex sys programmer & nuc eng. Then I wised up.

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    Gender:
    Female
    Birthday:
    Apr 10, 1980 (Age: 34)
    Home Page:
    http://tinyurl.com/kanescave
    Location:
    Lazy slacker, naked in cave—steal elec—see profile
    Occupation:
    Ex sys programmer & nuc eng. Then I wised up.
    Note: this is the standard info I paste on profiles. Details may have changed

    Hi, I'm Faye. I live in a cave in the woods:​

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    Finally I couldn't stand it anymore, the way grownups are. I walked off my nuc engineering job, abandoned so-called "humanity" and have lived in the woods for 3 years in my "cave": a cozy, half-buried little tent in a ditch next to the interstate, covered with layers of plastic and raggedy blankets to keep out the cold and the monsters.

    I hacked into the power grid, have wireless broadband, A/C , a space heater, my dorm fridge, a hot plate, Little Mister Bear (stuffed), and festive, colored christmas lights.

    It's like an Apollo capsule packed with technology in here, buried in dirt and sticks and leaves and topped off with a delicious chocolate coating of bird and squirrel crap. I hear them scurrying around on top of it all, and that's one of the things that makes my life so wonderful now.

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    I'm officially crazy, officially autistic, and officially a "savant"—a rare female one. Among other things, "autistic" means I can't correctly perceive emotions in other people, which means I'm vulnerable to being lied to and manipulated, particularly at work. It also means that I discovered noneuclidian geometry by myself when I was 13 and learned tensor calculus from a book on my own, but I am still completely unable to do 3rd-grade arithmetic. Literally. I can only add numbers, not subtract or divide or anything else. Basically, I'm an ordinary retard, except for languages (e.g., Latin) and complexity. In EVERY SINGLE OTHER THING, I'm an ordinary retard. I can't drive, for instance, and I'm clumsy.

    I used to work, before I WISED UP. Work was nuclear engineering, computer language design, and PC field service. I think the reason everybody I worked with hated me is my childishness, enthusiasm, and naive trust—which are precious and wonderful. Empathy. Compassion. Play. I find it ASTOUNDING that I'm an intelligent animal with a mating instinct. Nobody else seems to give a shit about it.

    Grownups have killed all the joy in themselves because that allowed them to survive being hurt and betrayed by people they trusted.

    The children know the way, and the grownups are lost. But you can't live in the grownups' world and still be a 12 year-old kid. That's why I don't live in their world. I live in my own.

    I'm always naked in my little world:

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    When grownups see in me what they lost, it reminds them of what they were and how beautiful and fun it was and how much the sadness hurt when they abandoned it. I remind them of the horror they both and accepted and created more of when they stopped being like me and became the horror instead.

    And since sadness and anger are really both the same emotion expressed differently, they get mad, and they want to kill happiness in other people. That's part of their sickness. If they don't, then they have to feel sad themselves-- the horrible sadness of being forced to abandon the only thing that's really important. "Growing up" is an incurable disease, and I seem to be immune to it.

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    Probably because I'm autistic, I'm almost certain that I'm neurologically unable to hate. Or feel jealousy or revenge or rage. I'm also told I have an emotional age of about 12. You may think this is a blessing, but I'm pretty sure it's not. You see, I can't feel love either, and that has made some people very sad.

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    To me, love means sex, as in "mating." That's "mating" as in, "a male animal brutally penetrating a female of his species." I really can't see how it can be anything else, and I figure everyone pretends there's romantic love because their mommies told them sex was "bad."

    God knows mine did.

    In 2001 I had a religious-like revelation: I discovered that I only like a very nonstandard kind of sex—basically, torture and rape. It got me illegally committed to a mental hospital by my mom and her unethical, lawbreaking shrink; which is where I found out I'm an idiot savant—autistic.

    Yes, I AM crazy. Imagine that! You found someone on the internet who's crazy!

    But the thing is:

    Now I don't have to care that the god damn grownups hate what I am anymore.

    Naked pix

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    -Faith "Kane"

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  • System Name: Sex Machine
    Processor: AMD 9590, upgraded from 4350 only 3 days ago and haven't even installed it yet.
    Motherboard: ASUS Crosshair V Formula-Z, but had to RMS it, so now I have to wait another week.
    Cooling: Below-ambient thermoelectric. 420-watt, 24v 60mm Peltier chip. Requires two 3-fan radiators.
    Memory: 16GB Team Xtreem DDR3 2400MHz Model TXWD316G2400HC10QDC01. Will be 32G soon.
    Video Card(s): GeForce 480 for now. I don't do 3D games because they involve killing people. I only do second life.
    Hard Disk(s): 128G SSD, 1TB SATA III, identical 1TB backup. All are full-disk encrypted. Fcuk the NSA.
    Optical Drive: DVD. Whatever. BTW, only running Peltier at 12v so far, but I have a 24v PS waiting to be used.
    LCD/CRT Model: 120 HZ Viewsonic. Turns out 3D sux, though. Was a waste of money.
    Case: I run naked (no case). Reduces ambient 8º C, so it reduces all temps 8º C. Also easier to hack with.
    Sound Card: BTW, I have a 2nd pwr supply slaved to the kilowatt one just to run the 420W peltier & cooling pump.
    Power Supply: Just got a kilowatt EVGA modular PSU. Old 850W runs the custom liquid cooling setup.
    Software: Win 7 — Win 8 got Ballmer fired, and rightly so. Apple blows even worse.
    Benchmark Scores: Misc info: I used to design stuff for a nuc reactor. Naked pix at tinyurl.com/kanescave for you guys