Well Ill be honest with you guys. My "mom" bailed on me one day which happen to be my birthday. I saw the bitch one time after that. I was raised to see death as a part of life and ever since I was a kid its been there. If my dad died tomorrow my biggest fear is someone would rob his house while I was at the crematorium. Shit happen. It WILL happen to you. Just deal with it and move on.
Posting on a tech forum personal issues and seeking advice is beyond pointless. I post stuff on here thats personal to make someone laugh or be an example. Not to seek advice. I hate to sound like a mod pet but I have to agree with dan on this one. Installing false hope is a waste of time and counter productive.