Today is the day I begin to break 1000's of spotify likes into playlists in the hope that maybe my 6 dailies will be more than 30-song-aggregates of all of my liked songs and maybe a couple of new ones that make no sense.
Why does it seem like whenever Im shopping for shoes and see a pair I like, theyre always out of stock? I dont ask for much. Size 11. Averaging a pair every 2 odd years. Never in my life not had to settle.
Got a call from an abusive ex today. Instead of shutting her down, I bought in. For an hour I gave her golden chances to use her favorite tricks. And then when she took them I would mention an example of her doing the same before.
Towards the end she was scream-crying kindergarten insults at me. I kept therapist tone the whole time. So satisfying.
It took a while for me to understand what 'comfort in humility' means. But it's really true.
A bit earlier in life, I wanted always to be the best possible 'me' and know that I am. Just for me to always have that. But now I know that everything is both simpler and more meaningful when you don't pressure yourself for pride alone.
In spite of things like house flooding, covid-19, sister stealing 1000's from mom, various BS, I think I'm the least stressed I've been in years.
When things go back to normal, I don't know if I can live like I used to. You learn a lot when things get pulled away from you for a while. So many things I don't miss at all about my daily life and never realized.
Twitter scares me with how easy it is exploit. Bots start off just retweeting things their targets like, taking advantage of filtering to get like minds on them. Assuming they follow, it gets extra weighting. And then once drawing a crowd can basically turn 1000's of real people into misinformation aggregates.
I don't follow the conspiracies. But it seems like it'd be very easy.