Why does it seem like whenever Im shopping for shoes and see a pair I like, theyre always out of stock? I dont ask for much. Size 11. Averaging a pair every 2 odd years. Never in my life not had to settle.
Got a call from an abusive ex today. Instead of shutting her down, I bought in. For an hour I gave her golden chances to use her favorite tricks. And then when she took them I would mention an example of her doing the same before.
Towards the end she was scream-crying kindergarten insults at me. I kept therapist tone the whole time. So satisfying.
It took a while for me to understand what 'comfort in humility' means. But it's really true.
A bit earlier in life, I wanted always to be the best possible 'me' and know that I am. Just for me to always have that. But now I know that everything is both simpler and more meaningful when you don't pressure yourself for pride alone.
In spite of things like house flooding, covid-19, sister stealing 1000's from mom, various BS, I think I'm the least stressed I've been in years.
When things go back to normal, I don't know if I can live like I used to. You learn a lot when things get pulled away from you for a while. So many things I don't miss at all about my daily life and never realized.
Twitter scares me with how easy it is exploit. Bots start off just retweeting things their targets like, taking advantage of filtering to get like minds on them. Assuming they follow, it gets extra weighting. And then once drawing a crowd can basically turn 1000's of real people into misinformation aggregates.
I don't follow the conspiracies. But it seems like it'd be very easy.
Autocorrect only ever seems to cost me MORE time when I don't really have it. I go back over it changing established terms it just didn't know or hitting slang (making sentences incomprehensible) or doing weird stuff like correcting 'lets' to 'let's' as though BOTH aren't basic english. Other times it chops up words as I'm inserting letters.
Cruelly it just seems to make touch screens harder for me.
~3am last night I awoke to the curtain drop of a breaker trip. Turned off the bed to find my feet immersed in water. Fountain sounds in the bathroom. Go to bathroom and find toilet has flooded half of the house. The other day, the pressure switch lost tension... probably pumped air into lines, making the fill valve stick. *shrugs*
Getting my stimulus has been a PITA, man. Last year I took the stupid reloadable card to get my refund faster. And then I tossed the card. My stimulus is on that card.
To get a replacement I've been on the phone 3 times. Next is a trip to H&R to try and get a card that lets me access that money. All I can say is, it's a good thing I'm still working or I'd be boned about now.
Got my last wisdom tooth out just in time haha. It was so infected they thought I might need a surgeon... literally a chasm dividing it in half... probably hit me with the 'caine 20+ times... and then it popped out in 30 seconds lol