If you go by playthroughs, it's teetering around the halfway mark. I ultimately DO finish every game that I start at some point, just not always on the first or second pass. Sometimes I just get this terrible sinking feeling as I reach the end. I get this hyperfocus fixation on the game loop and all of the different points of progress that I just don't want it to end. If that's how I feel, like I want there to be more game before I reach the end, I will often just restart and use whatever I learned to optimize and essentially have a more refined experience with the game. I've learned to like doing it that way, as it gets me more involved with mechanics I may otherwise pass over and thus, I ultimately get a more complete pass of the game.
Other times, I just get terrible choice blindness, where I can't decide what to plug into and cycle games day by day. I get into this ADHD mode where it's less about focusing on one specific thing and more about being able to quickly pivot across a lot of things. So I still enjoy it - I get these interesting side-by-side impressions of games and when I'm in that state, every game feels fresh and cool to me, even if I get antsy to play another not too long after. It's a bit like my mind is just changing channels. To continue is total boredom. Like, it's painful levels of boredom - dysphoric inner ennui. And 'poof!' goes my short-term memory and thus my ability to play the game competently. But if I move into a different game, I may zoom ahead like I've been practicing. If it's a game that I already have past experience with, it's like I never stopped playing it, and I'm just as into it as I was last time I started, if not more.
Just watching where my intuition pulls me, cues me into what I have state-dependent-memory for. This condition involves a lot of what might be called 'low-grade altered-states' that can arise. At this point in my progression, I can delineate them to an extent and tap into that state-dependent-memory to get really into a game really fast. It's basically maximum enjoyment and engagement in minimal time. And so, I tend to think that when I cycle, I am subconsciously seeking an 'in' to that. I just kind of let it lead me into playing that game that's going to be super captivating and interesting to me - leave a more memorable impression.
I'm just kind of riding the waves of a shifting mind with my playing habits, I suppose. I never force myself to finish games. Putting that weight on the playthrough, these tasks I must do... it kind of deflates the whole experience for me. I just kind of figure that whatever puts me in that semi-timeless flow state, is the right course of action. I can change goals at any time, as there is no consequence, so it becomes about what I simply find most stimulating at the time. That's how I tend to find the deepest niches with games I'll finish multiple times, even if I don't finish it every time. My brain seems to crawl meticulously over one or two major sections each time before it's had its fill. I feel that, too. I can tell what I'm training on and deliberately boost it, get a lot out of each time I sit and play. Something will just make me want to explore/analyze this or that thing about the game. Bite by bite, it culminates in this bigger picture that I recognize as unique to me. It's like this whole big experience that gets built across many scattered sessions and finished playthroughs. It can take me a very long time to fully appreciate just one game.
'even if you enable the immortality option in the menu you still take damage just wont die but my HP did not drop completely so basically it wasn't even needed..'
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